The Paradox in Binge as Rescue: You know what you want. You want to be solid and alive. You want to be capable of being seen and heard without going into anxiety. You want to be real and have a real life.
However, experiencing an emotional crisis drives you to save yourself from intense and immediate pain. You plunge into your eating disorder repertoire.
Eating Disorder Rescues: The eating disorder rescue looks like this: You crawl under the covers, trembling on the inside and afraid to come out. Or you sink into the television, binge and do not answer the phone. Or you binge in restaurants wearing what feels like your invisibility cloak or phony persona. Or you binge in your car, alone and unseen.
Doors can open for you if you knock or simply turn the handle.
Yoyos can be fun, but not when that tricky up and down experience involves your weight. Many people get caught in the yo yo weight gain - weight loss experience yet feel they don't meet the various criteria for an eating disorder.