Experience of Crisis: If you have an eating disorder, then you experience a crisis when you perceive, real or not, that the presence of a constant, reliable, important and nourishing something or someone is leaving you.
Your feeling of being adrift and alone in a vast emptiness with nothing to hold on to and where no one can reach you or even know where you are is unbearable. Regardless of what eating disorder you have, you will feel the urge to do what works for you during periods of real or perceived loss.
Reaction: Depending on the severity of your disorder and the severity of the loss, real or remembered, you may binge on food or exercise or go into starvation mode. You may cut or edge toward suicide. You can fall into a binge-purge episode stretching across a range of once in one day to 15 or more episodes per day for many days.
If you have some degree of recovery, you may find yourself saying to a friend or your psychotherapist: