thanks Laura, it's strange to notice how my mind is working today. I have been obsessing less on restricting, but sitting here today I notice that I am actually trying to convince myself not to eat lunch. This is not overtly conscious. I am connecting it with the pending family dinner and the possible stress. So atleast i am connecting things, which means I can try to process my anxiety ahead of time and be more prepared. I think it is all a control issue...my mind is preparing me to "be in control" of any negative situation that may occur at dinner...so if i eat my meals today I may become "out of control" and be a mess by dinner, because "eating means a loss of self control"...again, thinking thru these things now will help me later...keep telling myself how well I have been doing the past week, and to keep up the momentum... hope my crazy thoughts make sense. tracy