Thank you for writing, Tracy.  It's great that you hear your healthy voice.  Now it's time for you to make a decision to nurture and protect it.

You may not be ready to follow it, but you can make room to give it more space in your life. This will allow your healthy voice to grow stronger.

Can you write down the healthy messages that voice gives you?  Can you give yourself some time every day to write down those messages, collect them in a healthy journal, and read them on a regular basis?

You don't have to do what the healthy voice says, at least not at first.  In time, you will gain confidence and courage.  Then you'll make your move.  For now, just give the healthy part of you room to speak and be heard by you.