silencing the voice

I do hear that voice sometimes.  It's the voice that tries to tell me that I am ok just the way I am.  That it's not worth it to engage in ED behaviors. I think I find myself silencing that voice because I am afraid that I will completely let myself go and gain a lot of weight and feel even worse. I hear the voice telling me to stop taking diet pills, but the fact that I have lost weight motivates me to continue. its the voice that tells me not to weigh myself every day, but I cant start my day without doing so.  I guess i keep thinking that i will listen to that voice when i "deserve" to.  When I reach my goal....the one I never seem to reach...sigh.