major set back for me this evening. I truly had planned to eat better today, in fact, my post this am was quite positive. In my thanksgiving post I mentioned how my mother makes issue of my eating habits. I have been determined to work on nourishing my body in baby steps. so today i went shopping with her.

I had eaten breakfast, and actually allowed myself a little more than usual. So at lunch I was only able to allow myself some steamed vegetables. Again, comments. We had a rather busy day, we walked alot...my little one couldnt keep her hands off store items, etc., so I was chasing after her... hours later, on the ride home I got terribly sick to my head and dizzy..I think my blood sugar dropped very low...so in the middle of trying not to pass out, and my older daughter crying, and my mom stopping at MCDONALDS !!! to make me eat something ...all I could hear her say is "you have to eat, you can't keep starving yourself..."

I don't know if it's good or bad that she is totally on to me...I couldn't deny it after that little incident..the excuses are running out...and through it all I was still CONCERNED ABOUT THE CALORIES IN THE ORANGE JUICE...this is so crazy.... but isnt all of this crazy anyway? tomorrow is a new day...I need to be more careful around my family...or I need to be more careful with myself???? I know the answer..