Hey Joanna, Thank you for your kind words, advice and comments. My sesh should be interesting tomorrow. I've already warned her that I'll be laying face down on the couch with my jacket over my head. I hate talking and suck at expressing my feelings, so I feel like just laying there is somewhat expressing how I feel, which is pretty crappy. I don't want to lose my T. Not only does she know what she's doing, but I really like working with her. I just wish this was easier. I can't gain the weight she wants me to gain. I don't want her to think I'm choosing the ED over her, but I just can't do what she is asking of me. It's too much. I know she's doing what she feels she has to do, but it still sucks. I still don't understand why she can't continue to work with me regardless of my weight. I'm not unhealthy or unstable.