didn't do so well?

Dear Tracy,

You are doing better than you know.  That foggy feeling could be a signal that your dissociative defense is slipping.

You are pushing against your defenses - like rage, fear, guilt, self-criticism.  And what's doing the pushing is your owngrowing  awareness, psychological strength, courage and determination - even if it doesn't feel like that's what's happening.

So, you pushed halfway through the session until you couldn't anymore. What's wrong with that?  That's a win!

You are not going to go all the way in one session.  You are building from within and what you build takes you as far as that level of construction holds.  Just keep building, i.e. keep showing up for your recovery work.

"Inch by inch, the snail reached the ark."   :)