Tracy...have you tried, when you either want to eat but hold yourself back, or when you do eat...just at that crucial time, either when you are saying 'no' to yourself or when you first put the food to your mouth...to stop and ask yourself what feelings have come up, how do you feel, how does the stopping yourself or the eating make you feel, not just physically, emotionally too. Sorry you felt like you wasted your money in therapy , I'm sure you didn't really - we need the quieter days too, in order to be able to get to the point where we have the really good, 'breakthrough' days.