Joanna - I think I understand what you mean. So it's fluid. Ts like you are constantly changing the mix of comfort and holding as you help helps us move through recovery. And the feelings I'm having are normal. Having the wishes and wants doesn't mean I am failing recovery, or that I'll never learning how ask for comfort or to comfort myself in a grown up way. That's helpful. I've always thought the wishing was a sign that I'm not comitted enough to recovery. Thank you.