I've tried to give the aquarium away. T

I've tried to give the aquarium away. The store where I bought them closed. I've had these fish 3 years. The same fish. I bought the cheapest two fish at the store as an experiment. They flourished and procreated. If my life were the movie 28 Days, I should be able to maintain a relationship with a human being. My cat is a thriving 15 pound purr box. I haven't allowed the cat to have his own live sushi bar although it has been on his mind. My roses flourish even with my limited time to care for them. The fish have a good life. I'm just tired of responsibility as a whole. I have tried the trash can at the door. The problem is I don't care anymore. I have no true motivation for making another positive change. My mental health is taking a real beating due to the imbalance. The thoughts created by Borderline Personality Disorder are so black and white. I want shades of grey. I want to accept imperfection and humanness.