I don't know how to get there

I try so hard to dig deep and figure out what it is that's going on in my head or what has happened in my life to cause me to have an ED.  I had a great life growing up, nothing traumitic or anything, but I can't dig deep.  I can't go below the surface and really talk about things because I don't know what the "things" are that I'm supposed to talk about.  Maybe my unconsious mind knows, although it's not doing a good job of helping me out there, except in dreams sometimes.  I have really good dreams.  I just don't know how to dig deep and get to whatever "issues" I supposedly have.

I think I just rambled.