Hi Joanna, The work I've done on mind/behavior and heart/soul has had such duality that I have despaired of integrating body/mind experience with spiritual insights. I could go on week long silent meditation retreats and believe that some genuine insight was manifested and then reattach myself to rigid food rules upon returning home. Likewise I could successfully change my eating behaviors and find myself in unyielding judgment and anxiety. The progress I've made in both areas has been real but, hard as it is to accept, integration of mind and heart is not under my absolute control. Everything comes into place but in a timing that isn't a carbon copy of the recovery described in my books. Giving myself credit and allowing myself joy for the small steps has been missing and is so essential. To be willing to live with less than perfect and to let myself rest in not-knowing is easy to be glib about but is wrenchingly hard to experience. Diane