Eating disorders are amazing. I truly believe that if you have an eating disorder you have everything you need to recover. Eating disorders pull, twist and distort your vision and direct your energy into anti-self feelings and behaviors, tricking you into believing you have no choice. But, all that energy and ability to focus is yours. The loyalty you give to your eating disorder is yours. Recovery work is about clearing and claiming your vision and directing your energy toward what is really good for you. Laura, Tracy, Kym, if you've spent time being "loyal" to the destructive calls to your eating disorders, fears, drugs, hiding, people pleasing, please know that you have every right to turn that loyalty around to caring well for yourself. The energy is there. It needs to be directed toward your well being. And in the beginning, it feels like "trudging" because you are changing direction. Once you are on your new and authentic path, you can skip and dance (with occasional trudging. ) Kym, I'm so glad your instructor reinforced the validity of your choice. :) Laura, we all have to go where we need to go to get the awareness we need for recovery. Sounds like you got it. :)