Dear Mary Louise, The first step is writing those wishes of yours. Let me know how that goes. Then you can journal on your wishes or write down more wishes you've had for yourself that you've forgotten about. When you do this you begin to free yourself from barriers your eating disorder has created. You might not feel good at first, looking at what you really want. But if you keep writing down your wishes you will have an effect on your unconscious. You'll start to make changes in how you make choices. As you let yourself be more aware of what you really want you will make tiny tweaks in your life. Please remember, if you sailing on the sea, a tiny change in how you place your rudder can, over time, take you to a different continent. For you, the different continent is a life worth living in freedom. I'll be watching for your post. :)