well, self-control went out the window f

well, self-control went out the window for the second bingeful episode this week!!! my daughters captain crunch and a piece of carrot cake with very sweet icing were just too much to resist...why? why? why? I am tired. check. I have to go back to a job I hate tomorrow. check. My depakote got increased. check, check. Can't stand my best friends fiance ~ he is so subltely controlling..she can't see it..I can't ruin her happiness by explaining to her that my intuition is most likely dead on that he is only going to get more controlling....and this scares me for her and hits close to home for me having been abused.. HUGE CHECK! I don't usually crave sweets, so this is a little strange for me. tomorrow is a new day. sigh. I am ok...just a little disappointed...but able to identify the triggers...I really, really do not like this guy. Tonight he posted some very angry things on facebook, very inconsiderate and racist as well. I sense an edge to him that is not good...rambling, going in circles...I make sense to me. tracy