Time

Q9. Is the life I am living anywhere near the life of my deepest desires?
Q10. Do I even know my deepest desires?

They are the questions closest to my heart at the moment!

I have ideas, I have some plans, I have a belief that there is more about my deepests desires yet to be discovered, I like to remain open to new concepts, new ideas, new twists and turns - in fact I deeply desire that feeling when someone opens your eyes to something new and different and you feel inspired and think "I want to be a part of that", and I want to feel that over and over in different ways, about different things, at different points in time.

My biggest contstraint is time!

I always say that I spent the first 40 years of my life living how my mother wanted me to, but I am determined to live my last 40 years in the way I want to, that is meaningful and has value to me!

But there is just so much to do...where do you start...how do you fit it all in?
Sometimes I feel like I am playing "catch-up" - building the career, the home, the relationships etc that I should've started building 20+ years ago.

I am trying to "enjoy the ride" and I am enjoying it very much, but there is so much else I want to do, and I'm so eager to get started with it, and the life I desire is not the life of a burnt out person, but pacing yourself when there's a whole exciting world out there waiting for you, is hard!!!