thank you, Joanna. I am ok. Just wasn't prepared. I like what you wrote back to me. I think a goal for me throughout my recovery will be trying to figure out a way I can set this healthy example for my girls. I need to develop my own "sturdy spirit", but until then, I hope I can "fake it til I make it". I am working on all this in therapy, and for once, I am really trying. I still feel hopeful :) Tracy