shh, that is interesting when you say you are scared to tell your therapist how you are feeling/how you are doing...I have those same thoughts sometimes...I also feel that if I start to talk about the old stuff I will spontaneously combust because I won't be able to handle my emotions and there will be no way to contain myself. I am proud of you that you were able to get your feelings out. I think we all sometimes doubt certain things we really know happened...maybe its our way of deflecting the pain it will cause...afterall, most of us have lives to live and children to take care of, or jobs to work..so we have to be kinda present...