.I have loved reading everyone's reasons to be thankful, some of them are very humbling, some spark off reflective thoughts - I think they are wonderful!
However, my feeling of "I will post something tomorrow..." yet tomorrow never comes, lets me know that I have a certain amount of resistance around this, and I'm not sure why.
It's not that I take everything in my life for granted and it's not that I don't feel thankful for many things, it's more that feeling of the enormity of the task ahead, as there are so many things to be thankful for, where do I start and where does it end? It's HUGE! TOO HUGE!
This feeling, the one of not being able to face the enormity of the task ahead, and the guilt or inadequacy that I feel as a result of that, that's really what underlies my ED. And I am, in the main, thankful for my ability to think broader, faster, deeper, or as my therapist would say, "bigger", she describes it as my "bigness".
What I realise as I'm writing this, is that it's about parameters, context, framework, boundaries for me, I need a defined space to work within, to contain my thoughts; I don't deal very well with open ended, anything goes questions, the options are too vast, I need some direction. And so I am thankful, for this blog and everyone's contributions, for helping me to realise that today!
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