Just been thinking about this, and wondering about the secrets that you never realised were secrets? When you believe that everyone else is being treated the same way as you are behind closed doors, then there are no secrets as such, the only secrets are the emotions that you feel guilty for not being able to handle very well, when everyone else that you believe to be in the same situation as yourself seem to have no problems with. When you realise that everyone wasn't in the same boat as you, and you got the raw deal, and it makes you wonder "why me, what did I do to deserve that?" The power of those feelings is quite overwhelming.