Joanna - I have been seeing my current T

Joanna - I have been seeing my current T for a year and I am his first ED/AN client. He is conspiring with, I mean collaborating with, my RD. T thinks I'm starting to do a better job of holding my feelings. I know I need to work on the thinking part because I still want to "do" something and channel the discomfort (even if it's just grabbing at my belly). I get scared and I brace against it instead of saying "wow I feel crummy and this is just part of life". There is a part of me that doesn't want to accept that life is always going to feel crummy because sometimes it feels like there is mostly crummy with a touch of joy here and there. How arrogant of me to think I should have more joy when I have so much to be thankful for. I do have your book and I gobbled it up and read through it fast once. Now I need to go back and take it slowly and do the exercises. I will think about bring the exercises to my T. Tracy - thank you. I do relate to everything you wrote. Oh and do get kitties...they do bring much happiness. I'm using the plural "kitties" because if you are gone a lot during the day, two kitties will play with each other and keep each other company and sometimes even keep each other out of trouble. And it is so much fun to watch them interact.