I usually have some freakouts this time

I usually have some freakouts this time of year because I'm surrounded by food. We have huge Italian feasts and it's non-stop. We sat at the table for 5 hours on Thanksgiving. I overeat (for me), which may or may not be a "normal" amount of food for other people, and I start to feel disgustingly fat, freak out, hit the gym harder than usual and want to weigh myself a million times. I don't know if this year will be different, maybe so. Lately I've been having the "I feel like giving up" thoughts and if I have a freakout, that may happen, I don't really know. We'll see. I've got three days of lots of food ahead of me and no gym on Christmas day. At least the not working out on that one day has gotten easier.