I know people have their own lives and I

I know people have their own lives and I'm not dissapointed in any specific friend, but it felt like planning a party for 9 months and then no one can come. I can still have a nice night reading a book or taking a bath, but it still feels lonely and dissapointing because I had hoped to spend time with friends. Last year I made their no-shows personally by letting ED tell me that I was a loser with no real friends. I quickly fought that off this year. Recovery has made me much more social this year, so I think I had more hope of friends coming. It was just disappointing....that's all. Thanks for clarifying.