Hi Laura, Thank you for this comment. You share this dilemma with many others who suffer from an eating disorder. I'm beginning to write posts that include thought provoking and I hope, inspiring, words from notable women. When you have an eating disorder your attention gets waylaid from expansive and deep perceptions that can enrich your life and the lives of those around you. Thinking gets focused, like a laser beam, on all things connected to food, eating, weight and appearance. Relief never comes because whatever is accomplished in weight gain or loss can always change if you lose your intense focus on your fat/thin/scale mentality. My hope is that these ideas from amazing women can interrupt the eating disorder mind freeze and open you and others to other things to think about. You might not feel frightened as your body moves toward health if you are focused on accomplishing something in life that is truly meaningful to you. What do you think?