glad to meet you Julie. Welcome. It sounds like you are isolating alot. I am assuming you have no connection with family. Do you work? Do you have any type of support system? Do you have an interest in being around others? Isolation never makes things better. You didn't expand on your eating disorder, but regardless, all eating disorders have similar roots. Glad to hear you are reading HHH. I have read it once and am working on going thru it again. I pick up something new each time. Keep writing and let us know how you are doing. Having this support has been the best thing for me in terms of helping me move toward recovery. tracy