Dear PTC, You know that you need to feed your body to stay alive. You are saying that food doesn't appeal to you, and that's why you don't eat. But you've given other reasons for not eating too. I wonder what you would experience if you gathered up all your writings and comments and read them. You might get a deeper perspective on what troubles you. That said, have you had a thorough medical check up lately? If you are not eating you might have a hormonal imbalance now or a digestive disease. If you have a digestive disease it might be knocking out your desire to eat. Below is a clipping from an article called, "Starvation Response." Is your psychotherapist back yet? This is a hard time for you: holidays, her absence, her having a baby, your concerns about how she will be smaller than when you saw her last because she was pregnant, your wanting to be smaller than she to feel good about yourself. Please find some support at home while you are waiting for her return. warm regards, Joanna http://randyschellenberg.tripod.com/anorexiatruthinfo/id45.html Researchers working with rats on calorie-restricted diets noticed that those eating less daily ran between 2.8 and 5.3 miles more than the other rats. Some of the rats on restricted diets ran themselves to death. This response to starvation would increase the liklihood of survival in famine conditions where competition for resources would be intense. In the lab rat's situation, if no food is added to the cage, the increased activity does not result in acquisition of nutrition. In like fashion, for the anorexic patient with a digestive disease, the hyperactivity does not lead to food intake, since the underlying disorder has either suppressed the appetite or produces gastrointestinal distress paired with food intake