Before I knew I had an ED, I thought I was just on a diet. I don't know how long I believed that for, because I guess I sort of knew in the back of my mind that it was more than a diet because I kept it a secret.

I guess I'm not really clear when I realized it was more than just a diet. I knew I was obsessed with everything ED related and was very obsessive. Maybe it wasn't until college that I started to realize that it might be a problem but didn't feel like it was "that bad."

I still don't think it's that bad so I feel like I don't have a "real eating disorder."

I remember taking the EAT test at a health expo and I scored a high mark, and the woman suggested I talk to someone. I didn't, but thought that maybe I did have an ED.

I guess I don't really have an answer to your question.